Lost

(A poem about heartache before awakening to a different type of Love)

I look for you everywhere

I see you in every person, in every car.

I think of the long lost memories

Then night comes crashing down

And I am tormented by the reality

It's all just an illusion

I am in it by myself.

You are nowhere to be found

Only in what was

You are nowhere to be seen

Only by her, the one you love

You are everywhere, I am nowhere

I long for your love

Even for just one glance

But you are looking elsewhere

You are looking for her

I live in my fantasy for a minute

It allows me to keep existing

But then I fall from that cloud

Only to feel the abandonment of your love

You once said you loved me

It left like the wind.

I chase it to find it

It no longer exists.